I alternate between periods of extended cum denial and periods of allowing myself to ejaculate freely. During a recent cycle of ejaculation, I consistently used a vibrator to bring myself to orgasm, experimenting with ruined orgasms. I didn't have much success producing ruined orgasms (although I have more ideas for the next round), but I found it to be good training for the sex muscles.
The vibrator is shaped like a small dildo, which I originally bought for an unsuccessful attempt at prostate milking, hoping to empty my prostate during extended uncummed episodes. In this case, I used the vibrator like a violin bow, indeed playing the cock like an instrument.
The cock is a separate being who must suffer anything I do to him. He must suffer. He has no choice. I draped a bandanna around the cock to contain the mess (hey, one undeniable advantage of cum denial is that there is no mess to clean up) and found it also allowed the vibrator to move more freely across the surface of the cock.
I developed two techniques.
I would touch the vibrator to the hungry cock for a moment, then remove it. Each time the sex muscles tightened in response, I would consciously and deliberately relax them, practicing keeping the muscles in a relaxed state, suppressing their natural reflex to prepare for orgasm. This was a variant of the "Open Edging" I have discussed here previously.
In other sessions, as the urge to ejaculate heightened, I would allow the muscles to pulse or throb, reacting to the stimulation but holding back, again touching the vibrator to the cock for a moment then taking it away while the muscles throbbed. This was more an exercise in "Closed Edging" described earlier.
I would touch the cock in a different spot each time, sometimes stimulating different parts of the bulging cockhead, other times focusing on the "sweet spot" or just to either side of it. This had the effect of giving all the various nerve endings a workout. Sometimes I would do this in the dark, never knowing exactly where the vibrator would make contact. Sometimes I would watch (without bandanna) as the cock began to drip precum. The sessions lasted anywhere from five to forty minutes before I finally ejaculated.
These sessions never seemed to produce large amounts of semen, but I seldom do anymore as the neuro systems are focused on holding back. The stimulation from the vibrator is less nuanced than the direct manipulation by my hand, creating an experience reminiscent of an external partner working my cock, but still under my control.
Addendum to original post:
I've got a cock ring vibrator which I generally only use as a diversion if I'm bored. I don't want it to accidentally push me over the edge. But it ended up being an interesting training device the other day when the batteries were low.
The power pack has a dial where you can control the intensity of the vibration. With the batteries low, even cranking it up full blast produced only a mild vibration. I positioned the ring at the base of my cock and let the vibrator run while I looked at some porn photos.
The vibration was not intense enough to make me cum, barely enough to make me hard. It was as if my cock had to "hunt" for the sensations, like trying to see something in the dark or trying to hear something very faint. It made my cock "listen." So it turned out to be a good exercise in sensitivity and cock awareness.
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